Thursday, April 17, 2008

Going, going, going...

The one thing about working and having little kids is that it feels like non-stop action from the crack of dawn until I drop into bed. Its partly my fault since I am trying to have time for the kids, work, exercising, seeing friends, spending time with my husband, and doing all the random household management, not to mention getting hair cuts, pedicures and leg waxes. I suppose if I cut some of that out, I'd have more time to sit on my butt. The exercising is what I'm having trouble getting used to the most. I try to go to the gym 2 times during the week after work. And then I also do yoga one night a week after the kids go to bed. So there are 3 days when I've got something to do in the evening already. Which means there are only 2 nights when I can relax after the kids go to bed. One of those nights is my husband's turn to do something after work so I end up doing the bedtime thing for two toddlers on my own. By the time I get B into bed, I'm exhausted!

This would all be ok if I could actually get a decent night's sleep, but lately K has been waking up around midnight and B comes into our room around 5am. Yikes.

But I have to say, even so, I still am glad that I went back to work. B was way overtired last night and threw a massive tantrum and I did not flip out at all. I had total patience with him and we were able to work through it and get him to eat his dinner without me losing my temper at all. That was super hard for me when I stayed at home. I was always so burnt out from the constant neediness. I really do a lot better now that I get some time to do the things I'd like to do. And I have to say its a lot less stressful watching our savings account get bigger instead of smaller.

Thursday, April 10, 2008

My first post

Ok, I've never blogged before, but here I go. I decided to return to work last fall when my daughter K was 6 months old. I was literally going insane. Ok, mabye not literally but it felt like it. So, I started passing my resume around. Initially, I was only going to do something part time. But the more I looked around, the more I realized that all the jobs I wanted were full time. So, I found myself applying for full time jobs at big companies. And before I knew it, my friends had me back at MSFT. I spent 5 years there before quitting and vowing I'd never return. Well, that didn't last too long.

How did I feel? Guilty? You bet. Terrified? That too. Relieved? Yep. Excited? Sorta. I agonized over finding a nanny. But I've been at it for about 4 months now and we're pretty much smooth sailing, much to my delight and surprise. I thought K who was 7 months would have the hardest time with the transition. But no, it was B who at 2.5 years felt pretty strongly that I should still be home everyday to play with him.

I am loving being back at work. Loving it. The first week, I couldn't believe how nice the quiet of my office was. And now, I find that I look forward to going to work and I look forward to coming home. So, so far, so good.