Thursday, June 11, 2009

who do I love more?

So, my friend told me that I talk about my son more than my daughter. I'm not sure this is necessarily true, but it got me wondering if it is. I know that my daughter is a lot like me. In fact, sometimes it is scary how much I relate to her. Maybe I feel strange bragging about my daughter because what I really want to say is "she is so amazingly smart, like in a scary way." Basically we treat her like she is the same age as Bob. She can talk as well as him, she understands things that I think she shouldn't, she sings songs, counts, does imaginary play, etc. Maybe these are normal, I know people say girls develop faster in some ways, but Bob wasn't close to doing any of that at 2.

Bob is awesome in lots of ways too. He is very creative and can play for hours very intricate games. He is very empathetic. I love how he loves me so much. Kiera and I have a much more complex relationship. At least, that is the way it feel. It feels like there is more tension. Bob always just seems like he worships the ground I walk on. I never really feel like we're at odds. And I feel like Kiera and I are in a power struggle. Maybe it is all in my head.

Anyway, I know I love them both so much it hurts sometimes. I could never pick one over the other. I don't even like comparing them because I think they are both so amazing in their own way.